Am so damn tired.

[ernads]

I want to shout out that I wish for death.
I want to cry that's I'm done: no more spoons.
I want to shout that's it's to much, that I can't manage so many fronts.I'm just human.
I want to beg for just a tiny bit acknowledge of my attempt and effort. I want to beg to be judged not only for my numerous tailers.
But. I do not have the energy any more,nor do I have someone who will listen without judgment.
I feel that I am like a blind person who is expectect to read.
I feel that they see only my patterns and illnesses, not as a human being.
I want to ask why the hell was I born at all.
I want to ask why the hell should I fight own,as I keep failing.
I want to fall asleep and not wake up at all.
Peace.Rest.Quite.

Comments

[chanter1944]

Should we be concerned for your immediate safety, here? I absolutely do not mean this as either judgment or criticism, please believe me, and I entirely get that every once in a while, a person just needs to vent their metaphorical spleen or else bawl, but I'm honestly a little worried...

[ernads]

That's kind of you:) I just have to many fronts to handle so I break down from time to time.

Thanks a lot

[pauamma]

That's entirely understandable.

[chanter1944]

I entirely get that.

[gingicat]

I hear you.

[ernads]

Thanks! That's just what I needed at the time.

[stealthsystem]

I hear you. That's a really hard place to be.

[ernads]

Thanks a lot:)